January 2010
you know what i don’t think is fair ?
that whenever you need her, she is never there. yet when she needs you, you come running, with no hesiation. and you were the one who told me all relationships were give and take.
i think that sometimes, in our pursuit of happiness, we should stop for a bit and just be happy.
i wish i hated you as much as i hate myself.
why the hell did god do this to me ? i’ll tell you why. there is no god. there is no big man in the sky watching over us all, coz i tell you what, if there was, then maybe i’d be with you.
and he whispered to her;
“the only way i could hurt you, was if i held your hand too tight.”
no walls, can keep me protected,
no sleep, nothing between me and the rain,
and you can’t save me now,
i’m in the grip of a hurricane,
i’m gonna blow myself away
i’m going out, gonna drink myself to death,
and in the crowd, i see you with someone else,
i brace myself, coz i know it’s gonna hurt,
but i like to think at least things can’t get any worse.
...
i have to talk to you, because i honestly feel like i am the only one in the world who feels like i do, apart from you.
i hate missing people that i know i cannot see.
